my after school club (which i hated so much in real life and tried to change but my dream club rejected me) was having morning practice in our classrooms and i was late but really not on purpose this time. i even felt bad for hating it so much and being late as i was running towards my classroom. then, as i was going about to set up, im not sure what triggered it, but i saw my literature teacher who had suddenly become the teacher in charge for my after school club, and i started to fake cry like a madwoman into my palms and as i was fake crying i heard my literature teacher say something like we're trying to make it as smooth as it is for me because he knows i hate this club and he wants to help me get it done and over with and help me persevere til next year. i was asked to leave for a while and somebody was asked to accompany me. i remember seeing the girl my childhood crush used to have a crush on, the girl i tried my entire real life to embody in the most extreme ways, ignore me. in real life, i was best friends with this girl in the past. the first dream ends here. the second dream starts with me in one of my favourtie outfits i wore when i used ot be very slim in real life- now im not, and i was in my father's car and we were driving somewhere, i remember seeing my mother sitting beside me but i didn't see my father. i was walking around in. a mall i didnt recognise, it seemed like a lofty but empty hotel, all by myself and i think i had somewhere to go, but then i saw my childhood crush i didnt see in ages walk into a sushi restaurant. i even heard his voice - it was so clear and sounded exactly how i remembered his voice sounded like. i decided to linger around outside and stalk him from a distance. after the sushi restaurant, he went into the book store. it was then that i decided to walk into it behind him by a distance. i was browsing sections, pretending to look busy, and saw him walk into a private room of the book store from the corner of my eye. i heard his voice and saw a few/one, i cant remember, girls in the room with him. after a while, they all came out. i saw my best friend, my classmate and a girl i once went with together to a school france immersion trip. i waved to all of them, my classmate said hi back, the girl didnt. i forgot what happened to my best friend, but i remmeber after this entire event in the dream i texted her and told her my past feelings for this boy and clarified what was going on. i went into another section to look at rilakkuma + sumikko gurashi merchandise and saw a lot of stuff that caught my eye, like a beautiful hand bag and plushies, and couldn't wait to purchase them with my bookstore vouchers that i won a while back. while i was queuing at the cashier, i saw my crush and i stared at him. he didn't notice anything. after this whole event was over i learnt that my childhood crush organised a get-go and a hangout and invited everybdoy except for me.
Dreams can often reflect our inner emotions, unresolved feelings, and experiences. Let's break down both dreams you described.
After School Club: The club you hated represents a situation in your life that you feel stuck in or obligated to be part of, even though you have negative feelings about it. Your desire to change it suggests you want more control or a better experience in some aspect of your life.
Being Late: Being late, especially when it's not on purpose, may indicate feelings of inadequacy or anxiety about meeting expectations—either your own or those imposed by others.
Fake Crying: This suggests a release of pent-up emotions. You might be feeling overwhelmed by the need to conform or cope with the situation, and the act of crying may indicate a desire to be understood or validated.
Teacher's Support: Your literature teacher's compassion might represent a guiding figure or a part of yourself that is trying to give you encouragement. It could reflect a desire for support in your current endeavors or struggles.
Childhood Crush: Seeing your childhood crush, especially in relation to the girl he liked, touches on past feelings of insecurity or jealousy. This may reflect lingering feelings about how you’ve changed or how you perceive your own worth compared to others.
Favorite Outfit: Wearing an outfit from a time when you felt slimmer signifies nostalgia and perhaps longing for a past self or a different chapter in your life. This might indicate concerns about self-image or acceptance.
Mall/Hotel Environment: The unfamiliar mall that feels empty may represent feelings of isolation or uncertainty in your current environment. You could be searching for fulfillment or direction.
Stalking the Crush: Lingering around your crush and pretending to look busy indicates a desire for connection but also fear of rejection. This behavior might show your reluctance to confront your feelings head-on.
Bookstore & Private Room: The bookstore symbolizes a pursuit of knowledge or a desire for deeper understanding. The private room with your crush could represent a fear of being on the outside of social circles or feeling excluded from experiences that others are having.
Merchandise & Vouchers: Finding appealing merchandise can symbolize a desire for joy or nostalgia associated with childhood or simpler times. It might indicate a wish for comfort in material things, especially as a way to cope with emotional distress.
Not Being Invited to Hangout: The realization that your crush organized an event without you may represent feelings of exclusion and insignificance. This reflects anxiety over your social relationships and fear of not being valued by those you care about.
Both dreams reveal complex emotions related to self-worth, acceptance, and unresolved feelings about past experiences and relationships. They highlight themes of struggle with identity, a longing for connection, and the impact of social dynamics on your feelings of self-esteem. You may be navigating through feelings of inadequacy or a desire to redefine yourself in the eyes of others. These dreams encourage introspection about your current life choices, your past, and how they shape your present feelings and relationships.